Don't, Don't, Don't Wake Me Up, 'Cause Now My Thrill Is Gone

You haven't given him a thought in almost a month, which was also the last time you saw him. A twinge of guilt prods at your subconscious mind as you think to yourself that you don't even want to see him. Maybe it was the dark times you both shared that talking to him reminds you too much of. Or maybe it's how he's just not the same as he was two years ago. Two years of high school can change a lot. But it's more than what you can handle. He speaks to you after a month of silence, and you wonder why you find yourself wishing you were elsewhere. It hurts you to think of letting go, but at the same time simply being friends is too painful. Usually smells or songs trigger bad memories. But this time, it's a friendship. The same friendship that has stayed your one constant over the past ten years. For the first time, you question the only solid and true thing in your life.